way to go me >:(

yep ive managed to do it again. without even thinking or trying ive hurt someone else. this time its sinderella just because of stupid human emotions i clamed up and said i dont want anything from her i froze over. now im suffering for it.
I didnt want to hurt her and she says its ok but i know its not and I cant help but feel like crap now because of wat ive done.

she should know i want her as a friend and in time definatly want more. But now im stressing and im afraid il end up taking it out on her when its not her fault or problem. best advice ive heard " shut up bitching suck it up and keep it too yourself"

WAY TO GO! someone explain why I keep doing this cause ive looked for the answers screaming them into the abyss and heard nothing back.

"keep on rolling the end is in sight"

different day same old sh*t

mini 12th tonight always good an excuse to drink untill i cant stand and cant remembe some of the stuff that has resurfaced. sinderella and i had a long talk and in it some of the darker parts of my past have come back to snap at me. In a way im glad that i spoke about it and especially glad it was her that listened.

Ive got soooo much time for her and trying to keep her as happy as i possibly can. any and ALL advice is welcome on that subject.

ANYWAY......trying to kill the sin stick (cigs) b4 they kill me so im likely to be short tempered and snappy for a while so sorry if you get in my way

"well keep your chin and headbutt the future"

first blog!

hey everyone welcome to the first entrance of my messed up mind! lol if you do get lost dont bother screaming you'll end up like the rest lol

keeping this one short and as sweet as i can manage

ttyl!